Angelmine

Hi Sharon, Â Yes I believe that she has beaten herself up also. Guilt ate at her like acid. My mother didn't find out til long after the abuse stopped. When she did find out she felt so guilty and remorseful that it ate at me. To this day I can't watch tv shows or movies with a molestation in the storyline with her because she gets this look on her face that tears me apart. I was naturally a shy and sensitive person any way so my mother didn't think anything was wrong when I kept to myself. I don't blame her for not noticing, and you are right we try and hide the abuse because we are ashamed. In Eva's case Nathan threatened her. In my case my abuser said if I told everybody would blame me and say that I was a bad person and it was my fault so with that said we try and protect our parents from what is going on and ourselves. Once Monica found out what was going on she did everything in her power to right the wrong.

Hi SME, No they don't trigger any of my old experiences I was 12 - 13 yrs old when I went through what I went through and I got help directly after my experience was over and mine wasn't as traumatic as E or G's experience. my mother didn't find out til I was 22 and my father still doesn't know so I know how Eva felt when she didn't want her father to find out. My father already hates my abuser and if he knew what happened he would kill him. I would not like to have to visit my father in prison so I don't want him to find out. After I read BTY the first time I had a nightmare but that is all. Their story intrigues me and I love reading it. I know how Eva feels when it comes to her being ashamed of how she acted when she was younger. There are a lot of things that I am not proud of in my past but I learned to accept them and move on. My past is my past I learned from it and I am stronger today because of it.

Hi Sharon, I agree with everything you say. I feel that Stanton gives Monica everything she needs and wants and she is not going to give that up. She is happy with Stanton but she also needs to resolve her issues with Victor and vice versa so they can both move on and be in a better place.

Yea not the head on our shoulders!! LOL

OH MY MY MY!!! My libido got a jumpstart this morning LOL

Hi GiGi, Thank you and I thought about it and yes it was premeditated so therefore justifiable homicide does go out the window. I was on my way to sleep when this occurred to me. I myself am in a pre-law/paralegal courses at our local community college. So I really should have known better. Was thinking of how to get our man off without really thinking it through. but thank you for pointing it out. Â Thank you for the Blessings sending them back your way and wish you a buon weekend also

Hi Julie, Thank you and hugs sent right back to you.

Hi GiGi, It is on pg. 258 in paperback version

OK when Monica and Eva are at lunch Monica says to Eva "Maybe you don't But what about him?" they were discussing secrets which leads me to believe that Monica thinks she knows something about Gideon that maybe Eva doesn't. The only thing I can think of is her knowing about Gideon killing Nathan because what else could she be talking about?

Well if it came down to it Gideon would just have to prove justification. That would be his defense. As a sexual abuse survivor myself I know that I would love the man even more if he killed my abuser. It is scary having to look over my shoulder all the time and with Graves telling her that at some point Nathan was going to kill her it made it all the more better that he was dead. Can't remember who said it but if Gideon wouldn't have killed him then Victor would have because he(Victor) was going to find out eventually and there is nothing in this world that would have been able to save Nathan from Victor.

I have read MB"s sweet series and I have her breathless on order I also have read all of Sylvia's other books which are a great read altogether I have 9 of Sylvia's books and 6 of MB's they keep me busy until CBY comes out.

I feel you on this she really didn't have to tell him that she was going. she needs to nip that in the bud very quickly. her texting him these smiley faces is really irking my nerves. She can just ignore his texts. I really was irked by her explanation about why she asked him up to the apt. wouldn't have been rude in my eyes just don't want to be bothered and he already knows that she just wants to be friends. like Cary said "no means no".

Ok so I was reading through the comments again and I realized I forgot all about Anne. She is a major witch with a capital B. I agree that she latched on to Corinne to get back at Gideon she doesn't realize that the only person that she is hurting is herself because she doesn't know why Gideon did her the way he did. She thinks that he is just a playboy and uses women.  I would like to see Gideon work through his nightmares in book 4 if there is only 5 books. Hopefully since there is such a big following they will continue the series, or maybe the other characters will get their own books continuing the following.  I also agree that maybe Micheal plays a big part into what is going on with Megumi. It might be Chris Jr. but then again I would think that people would know what he looks like and Megumi said that she likes to gossip so I would think that she has seen him in gossip papers or something like that. But this puzzles me so I'm not sure.  See so many things running through my head lost my train of thought.

Ok I know I am late to the party. Been looking for a forum like this for a while. Have so much to say and so little time. So I will try and say what I have to without losing my train of thought. First I think that Monica asked Clancy to kill Nathan but he was too late as Gideon had already did it. This is why she said you never know when and why you will need money. I also think that Clancy knew about the Russian mob through his brother as he does work for the FBI and also Clancy was in the military but he is closed mouth about it which has me thinking he was in special forces so he probably already new how to "cover up" the murder anyway. Second, I think Gideon already knows that Brett is going to be in SD so he will either go with them or he will meet them there to diffuse the Brett bomb once and for all if he hasn't done it before they leave. I also think that he trusts Eva enough to let her handle the situation on her own. Now that they have started spreading the news about their "engagement" Eva will start wearing her ring s that should diffuse the bomb also. I also agree with the notion that Brett had something to do with the sextape. Third, I think that Cary knew all about Eva getting back wit Gideon. He is too observant not to know, he knows her better than she knows herself. He was just waiting for Eva to tell him, that is why he was so at her for leaving him out of the loop. I also think that Eva can tell him everything that is going on 'cause Cary loves her and he would do anything for her. Fourth, the whole Corinne and Deanna issue makes me angry. Once Gideon learns how manipulative she(Corrine) is he will cut her off once and for all. Her husband needs to cart her off back to Paris. Deanna needs to get a grip on herself and leave Gideon alone, if she would just open her eyes she would see that Gideon has eyes for only one person and it is not her. Actually both her and Corrine need to come to this realization. Magdalene has moved on they should follow suit. Fifth, Christopher should buy a clue and figure out that he will never ever measure up and be as good or better than Gideon. So he needs to stop trying to compete ad be his own man. I think that Christopher is the one giving Corrine false hope where it concerns Gideon. Elizabeth should also buy a clue. I still can't figure out why she thinks Eva is the one "feeding him lies", Gideon was estranged from his family before she even came into the picture so how is she going to take him away? Last but surely not least (for right now anyway) I think that Gideon is going to design and have a ring made for their next wedding. He gave her his mothers ring for sentimental reasons, as their first wedding was personal and for them he wanted t give her something that meant a lot to him. These are just some of my thoughts.